my world fell apart… and I can’t say I have succeeded in putting it back together. Not a day goes by that I don’t wish I could chat with Joel, see him, hear his laugh, talk about the kids, discuss the most recent games, share thoughts on world news, just be with him…. I still drive around town and look at the side of any white pick-up truck — wishing the Home Zone logo would be there… it is difficult to describe the void that exists in my heart… no one can truly understand the experiences that Joel and I shared all those years…. the silly inside jokes that we had, which are triggered by a certain song, a phrase, a simple gesture…. i think of all the great times that our kids will never have with him…. none of it makes any sense to me….